actually that 10% sad part was sad enough to inevitably push dianne arbus over the edge and commit suicide after her untitled series of mongoloid children
joyously costumed for halloween.
perhaps there bears a resemblance between said contestants and these children and> yet.....
there's a marked difference.
neither xoxos or i had been burdened with any physiological malfacency except for being downright prideful, pompous, and arrogant....
egotisitical to the core and for me always ready to battle when a good clean philosophical exchange has to go places where it shouldn't.
i can recall numerous instances where my desire was to establish some sort of dialogue that might've led to some understanding....perhaps as decidedly different sorts of individuals and yet open-minded enough to accept some learning was possible via serious and honest exchange.
when said exchange became burdensome to my
cohort.....upon his request....i backed off.
and then later i get basically called a pussy.
someone with no balls.
and now this....which is basically nonsense...except to say that there still lies
within me the ever-present intrinsic need to share and communicate that which is sometimes taken for granted between human beings.
personally, i've always felt there was a lot to be learned by me being here at dancetech.
and sometimes it's just about havin a larf.
perhaps most importantly it's about just simply gaffin at life.
i guess where i differ is that i am basically humble and honest and do truly know what it means to experience serious trouble and pain in a way which
is difficult for me to even describe here.
so i don't even really bother trying.
gangsters.
police.
casino people.
intellectuals.
department heads.
every sort of charlatan and derelict.
phonies.
wise men. madmen.
all sorts of ladies.
and hard work. harder than anyone here could imagine.
drunks and musicians too.
as for anyone being purely abstract....
perhaps on a computer screen.....but once something is even dEfined as purely abstract it starts to possess definition....which certainly makes it less abstract.
and virtual ukelele music isn't really that abstract is it?
i'm more than prone to any argument regards my music or anyone else's.....
gay police pummelings or otherwise....
but i really don't see the point unless done in a
format which allows for a shrug and laugh occasionally.
to me it's often been about knocking the dirt off of each other and splitting a few beers.
of course, i DO expect to get my teeth kicked in for this....
but i got my frederick kruger mask on.
it's what keeps me happy.
clay