you know i just came back here cos i was thinking about it and here you are posted..
when i say intonations i just mean what you're doing naturally with your voice. fuck all the pitch 'augmentaiton' technology; i was about to mention that it's a nice performance.. sort of superliminal on my first post, but it's worth saying that your voice is pleasant.. you've got character in yr. voice and you're not afraid to use it
and at least you're not singing aobut pretentious crap. song's 'deep' but also really not.. it's honest, and you can't top that.
i don't remember everything i've ever said, but i know i've mentioned appreciating you before. the 'symmetrical' pattern oriented stuff doesn't move me as much as when they're used w/ a flowing lead, ie. in 'escape,' or 'where your path narrows.' harmonies are alive.
i don't think i've ever been so outspoken with anyone as with you in spring.. i really 'let you have a piece of my mind.' i can see how you would think i've never said anything good about yr. tracks or you after that.. the instance has certainly crossed my mind more than once.
i can't regret doing it, because i'm too proud in a way - my actions of a moment - and frankly, i agree with what i said. i *do* think cars and joyful consumerism are eeevil (read 'bad.') i felt like you insulting me for my criticisms. on the receiving end, the difference is probably imperceptible..
you weren't around much after that.. prolly just tired of hearing my crap and decided to do something productive. i had the same reaction to morrison.
it'd be a task to go back and debate points.. stuff like my criticism of your u.s. supportive statements was definately incited by my own agenda.
i do wish to sincerely apologise to you for one thing - conflict is a crappy thing, and even if it's just some little third grader yelling insults at you from across the schoolyard, i know it doesn't really make anyone's day.
and apology is warranted, because having someone tell you everything they think of you is an ordeal, regardless of how accurate or not it is. i know i'm not all that appreciative of what other people have to say of me, even if it's good. grade A self-depreciator here (reduces the need for company..)
i don't really know how that email affected you.. the stuff on dueling was an observation.. well, there were a lot of things that went into it. if it bothered you (probably bothered me way more - most of my acitons do) i didn't mean it to. so far, i've managed to admit a lot of my faults (lazy yes i guess, ungrateful yes, stupid, unimaginative, well.. many relative things..) but i haven't managed to convince myself/admit to myself that i'm all that cruel. bad things aren't good.
i needed to say that. it was a bit intense.